- get the boxes out of your closet
- take the posters down one by one
- pull off the wall paint trying to get putty off
- throw clothes in your suitcases indiscriminately
- give up for the day, start drinking
- find your best friend and walk in circles with her
- go to the end of the world and take silly self timer photos
- smoke a joint with the boy who has had crushes on both of you
- sit on the dining hall porch blatantly drinking at 4pm
- go into her house for the first and last time in 2020
- sit at the edge of campus and reminisce about your ex boyfriend doing xanax there years ago
- find your friends who are spiraling and take them to dinner
- go live on instagram
- go home and pack another suitcase
- try not to think too much
- put on your suit
- draw on your mustache
- try hard to believe this won't be the last time you'll get to do this
- get even more drunk with your best friends
- play a murder mystery game
- paint stars on your face
- put on your favorite jumpsuit
- sit with your friend while she pukes
- talk to her about her relationship and how you love her and how scared you all are
- walk across campus
- smoke weed in the art building
- scream in the auditorium
- arrive at a house in the woods
- jump so hard you worry the floor will break
- pass around a bottle of poppers
- find out the people you've been in awe of were in fact in awe of you
- do laps and laps and laps
- scream along to young wild and free like it's 2012 again
- sit with your best friend for a while
- share a time that is private and real
- enter a hall of mirrors
- dance on the springboard floor to super rich kids on the piano
- lie on the floor and feel very small
- smoke a joint with your best friends in your living room
- pass out
- eat brunch
- put books and sheets in boxes
- write a long blog post that can't come close to capturing the past 24 hours
- close the boxes
i love you all very much.
